A Nightmare
I will be going back to Singapore on 31 May 2011.
These 1.5 years in Doha has been very stressful, very tiring and very negative.
Everyday, we have to be tortured mentally because we have not done something or have done something wrong. Can you imagine, for 1.5 years, you're always wrong or late, how can you even experience a little bit of happiness?
Yes, I have learned a lot technically. But I have lost more, I have lost 1.5 years of happiness and my spirit. I have lost my passion for my work, love for my colleagues and respect for my superiors. I have sometimes lost my motivation to learn, sometimes lost my temper, sometimes my dignity, and sometimes my sanity.
I have lost 1.5 years of time to spend with my family and friends, which is secondary but nonetheless.
I feel I have wasted these 1.5 years.
Maybe I won't feel this way if I don't care so much about my work. But I do. And it is with disappointment and regrets I'm leaving. I know this disappointment and regret will follow me to the end of my life.
These 1.5 years in Doha has been very stressful, very tiring and very negative.
Everyday, we have to be tortured mentally because we have not done something or have done something wrong. Can you imagine, for 1.5 years, you're always wrong or late, how can you even experience a little bit of happiness?
Yes, I have learned a lot technically. But I have lost more, I have lost 1.5 years of happiness and my spirit. I have lost my passion for my work, love for my colleagues and respect for my superiors. I have sometimes lost my motivation to learn, sometimes lost my temper, sometimes my dignity, and sometimes my sanity.
I have lost 1.5 years of time to spend with my family and friends, which is secondary but nonetheless.
I feel I have wasted these 1.5 years.
Maybe I won't feel this way if I don't care so much about my work. But I do. And it is with disappointment and regrets I'm leaving. I know this disappointment and regret will follow me to the end of my life.
posted by WSW at 10:31 PM
1 Comments:
I don't know u, but from the passion of work, i can sense that u also learnt a lot from here, u don't lose everything, maybe u don't realize it now, u will discover it one day. so, cheer up! welcome back to Singapore!
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